It has been a busy holiday season in our home. Wonderful, but busy. So much has been going on I wish I had the time to put it all on my blog. About my blog...what does the future hold for it? My original intent was to create a place where I could journal my experiences, trials, and joys as well as create a way for my distant family to see the experiences we enjoy far from home. Sometimes I stick to that, sometimes I veer off into other directions that are unintentional.
Over the next little while I want to post some thoughts on what I want for this blog. I have had a few thoughts swimming around in my head. I would like to be more honest. More frank. More matter-of-fact. Easy enough I think. Not really. I remember learning something about myself in a psychology class I took while working toward my degree. I am a very self conscious person. I don't throw myself out there for everyone to know. Why? Because I am afraid of rejection. I am afraid people won't like me. Have you ever had a dream where you are standing naked in the middle of a crowd. Then you notice that everyone around you are pointing their fingers at you and laughing. That's how I feel when I make myself vulnerable by sharing my real self. Even if the faces are invisible to me.
I think this blog has been very shallow. I want, and need, a place to confess, vent, share love, desires, and anything else that is inside me. I wish to keep sharing my favorite recipes, crafts, and life experiences. I will still share pictures along with our family adventures. But I want to include a little more of me, too. A little more honesty. I want to really make this my journal. True I may loose the interest of those who regularly follow, but I have to say, "I don't care". I have to not care. That's the only way. I welcome comments, but please be kind. I have seen some nasty comments on other people's blogs that have been brave enough to share their true self. Frankly that's just mean, people. I used to value my blog on how many followers or comments I would get. Not anymore. I will shut off the followers link on my sidebar.
Well, that's all out in the open. I will add to this blog when time allows. Thanks for reading.