It has been a busy holiday season in our home. Wonderful, but busy. So much has been going on I wish I had the time to put it all on my blog. About my blog...what does the future hold for it? My original intent was to create a place where I could journal my experiences, trials, and joys as well as create a way for my distant family to see the experiences we enjoy far from home. Sometimes I stick to that, sometimes I veer off into other directions that are unintentional.
Over the next little while I want to post some thoughts on what I want for this blog. I have had a few thoughts swimming around in my head. I would like to be more honest. More frank. More matter-of-fact. Easy enough I think. Not really. I remember learning something about myself in a psychology class I took while working toward my degree. I am a very self conscious person. I don't throw myself out there for everyone to know. Why? Because I am afraid of rejection. I am afraid people won't like me. Have you ever had a dream where you are standing naked in the middle of a crowd. Then you notice that everyone around you are pointing their fingers at you and laughing. That's how I feel when I make myself vulnerable by sharing my real self. Even if the faces are invisible to me.
I think this blog has been very shallow. I want, and need, a place to confess, vent, share love, desires, and anything else that is inside me. I wish to keep sharing my favorite recipes, crafts, and life experiences. I will still share pictures along with our family adventures. But I want to include a little more of me, too. A little more honesty. I want to really make this my journal. True I may loose the interest of those who regularly follow, but I have to say, "I don't care". I have to not care. That's the only way. I welcome comments, but please be kind. I have seen some nasty comments on other people's blogs that have been brave enough to share their true self. Frankly that's just mean, people. I used to value my blog on how many followers or comments I would get. Not anymore. I will shut off the followers link on my sidebar.
Well, that's all out in the open. I will add to this blog when time allows. Thanks for reading.
Jenna
Blogs are better for the writer when it's honest. An unflinching look at yourself can do wonders in your life, particularly when it comes to how you relate to people.
ReplyDeleteI do my blog as a form of therapy, and to recognize patterns in the way I do business. I didn't want to do a diary because it doesn't feel as if I'm speaking to anyone. I speak to strangers that I'll never see and that makes it even better to say what needs to be said. Honesty is tough to write about but, once you get started, you begin to see who you are and can even get a better sense of how people perceive the "real you"